long time no see....

It's been a while since I've talked to you guys. I actually wrote something out, maybe last week, but somehow the entire thing got deleted. I think the palm of my hands actually touch the touch pad and does things that I have no knowledge of. I will try to keep my palms in check this time. I have been very upset lately and my hubby is the cause of it all. It's nice to have someone to blame it on. Because I know that I am not over reacting to anything and handling everything like an adult......
Anyway, moving on. Hubby has not been around a lot lately. He's been busy helping other people and doing other things. This leaves me to be mom and dad to the kids and help them to understand why he can help other people but not us...around the house, with homework, with baseball swing or learning to play tennis....those kinds of things. When he is home he is so tired from working and doing all this pro bono work that all he can do is sleep. Which is a major source of arguing for us because I think sleeping all day (late in the am and then taking multiple naps) is not setting a very good example for our kids. We've had this argument hundreds of times and everytime I'm the bitch because I don't understand his need for sleep. well, in my opinion is he got up and was active maybe he wouldn't be so tired all the time. I am not going to use this as an outlet to trash my hubby because despite the fact that I am mad about his recent lack of appearance in our life he is a good man. a good hubby, father and provider. I will just be mad silently.
In other news, I just got my computer back from the shop. Apparently I got a power surge and it fried my hard drive. That was another argument because I made a $350 decision without him but who cares. I told him that if I waited for him my computer would still be sitting here dead. Executive decision made by me and carried out in a timely manner. Now I have to get it back to the way it was but that is easier said than done. Tried changing the color scheme today..no go. still blue. I don't like blue computer, I want it personalized with pink and red and sparkles and maybe a hot nekkid guy wrapped in my sheets....but I digress. My computer and I have to get to know each other again but if I can't get the sparkles going soon my hopes for a hot nekkid guy are dashed.
Guess what everyone is talking about now? and by everyone I mean my hubby....what am I going to do with myself once my baby gets into kindergarten this August..I don't know. How am I supposed to know this kind of thing. I've been a SAHM for almost 12 years. Despite the fact that I have a college degree I have very little else. Unless someone wants me to keep track of their FB page I got nothing. My current thought is just to get to May and my trip to Atlanta and the Creek for my reunion. Will I have the money to pay for the plane ticket? the rental car? the hotel? food? Maybe by then I will have lowered my food intake to one meal a day and it won't cost that much. I am really looking forward to that trip. It's my final hoorah before school gets out and the last time I will be alone for the whole summer. I have got to get my groove thang moving before the summer sucks me dry.
I joke about my kids and all their neediness and the pain they cause me on a daily basis but bottom line is that they are the greatest kids in the world. I would totally do it all over again if given the choice, but I would do it in Texas because if I'm doing it all over again we would NOT move to California.
Well, I think this catches things up a little without overloading anyone.
wish me luck on the re-personalization of my computer and cross your fingers for the hot nekkid guy!